On Honesty

I have made some mistakes in my life. We all have done things we regret. We have words that we wish we could take back, relationships that we wish we could mend, hearts we broken we wished we could mend. I have not always been honest about things. I did it not in a mean or callous way but in a way to not hurt people. I was afraid if I told them how I really felt then it make them not want to be my friend. I have not had the best of luck with friendships. I have been hurt so much that I stopped trusting people so I would internalize my feelings and lie. This has hurt people and for that I am sorry. I know that I need to be honest with people now. I learned that my current friends should be punished for what has been done to me in the past. I know now how to trust people. I have learned to be honest with them and learn that it will not hurt our friendship but actually make it so much better. Honesty with ourselves is the first step. We need to look deep inside and examine ourselves. After we examine ourselves we need to come clean with those we love. We need to see things through their perspective. We need to emphasize with them so that we then movie forward. I am glad to say that this is now in my past. My mask is off and I have learned to trust people. Can people still hurt us? Yes. But if we are honest then we have done everything that we possible can. I hope today that you are not holding back anything for those you love. It is NOT worth it. I have learned time and time again that the truth ALWAYS comes out! It is more hurtful when it comes out later as a lie. There is a song by Brandon Heath that I love and I want to close out this post with it. It is titled "I'm not Who I Was." I think of the people who I have hurt, the people who have left me for one reason or another. I wish they could see me today, how far I've come and how much I have learned. I know if they could see me today that they would want to my friend again.